Dear Lexie,
Today was one of the best days we have had in a while, although I didn’t get to see you all morning. I was cleaning a (very icky, previously cat infested condo, all because I love you and want to be home with you most days….) condo on the lake. I was there for nearly 6 hours and didn’t get to pick you up until 4:00, but I made it home for a hot shower first, so you wouldn’t have to come in direct contact with the ickiness that is my part time job.
When we got home we played with the new Little People Farm your Daddy and I got you last week; when I saw it I knew you had to have it! (and I am not a big toy buyer …) You love your farm! We put all the animals in the silo, took them out, put them in all the correct stalls, took them out, put them all in the hay loft, took them out … well, you get the point. You really enjoyed playing with your farm. (oh and yesterday you learned how to open the silo door, finally!) Then we laid on the floor and tickled and played, rolled around, and dug toys out from under the couch. What fun! There was no whining or tantrum-throwing. You asked for “help please” when you needed it and had fun the rest of the time.
Then, at 6:00 you ate dinner after we said the blessing … which you are still not enjoying very much. Patience, dear, patience. After your bath we played peekaboo and sang your favorite songs, of which you know all the words, while I got you ready for bed. For the first night in weeks you didn’t whine or fuss about getting ready for bed. When I picked you up, you placed your head on my shoulder and I held you for a few minutes before I gave you your bottle. While you drank your milk, I say “Jesus Loves Me.” Then I just held you and we rocked for a minute.

Lexie, I cried the whole time we rocked. I am not ready for you to grow up. I am not ready for you to be a big girl, and you are already so big in so many ways. So much more grown up than the other 13 month olds in your class at school. You’re so smart and sometimes it worries me. How many 13 month olds can do the words and motions to “Wheels on the Bus” or ” Old MacDonald”, point out the shapes of a circle (and the newest one) a star? You know the name of pracitcally every object in our house and can tell me when you need you diaper changed. Lexie, you are only 13.5 months old. Mommy is finding it hard to keep up with you, to keep you from getting bored. Is that how it will always be? Because you will get bored in school, and church … and every where that is not stimulating enough for your VERY fast moving big little brain. I am so thankful that you are so healthy and happy, smart and independent. But please slow down. You have the rest of your life to grow up. I don’t want to lose my snuggly, loving baby girl so soon.
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| “Up, please Mama. Up, Please.” |
Tomorrow morning I think we may go to the library, for your first visit. We won’t get to do the “baby steps” time, because it is during your nap, but I want to take you somewhere fun to play, with other kids. Lexie, your daddy and I only want the very best for you. We want you to be the happiest, healthiest girl you can be. Sometimes that will be hard for everyone, including you. Sometimes you will not understand our decisions, and while most times I will try to explain them to you, there will be many times that I cannot. Sometimes we just know and cannot explain it to you. And while I know you enjoy learning and growing and I am SO proud of you, ( Oh my, I was SO proud of you yesterday when you finally opened that silo; I was more excited than you!), I want you to slow down, stay my baby for just a while longer.
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| Mama’s Country ‘Bumpkin |
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| baby curls |
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| silly girl |
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| On a mission! |
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| helping mommy clean |
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| oops … missed a spot |
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| beautiful girl |
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| BIG eyes so I can see under my new hat! |